Working the night shift for the last two and a half years turned me into a sort of awkward human being. I’ve always unconsciously revealed my true feelings through the expressions on my face but the night shift enhanced this embarrassing quirk.
The other day I was talking with a woman at work who was wearing an unnaturally bright yet remarkable shade of lipstick that matched her nail polish. This woman is young, stylish, attractive, nice, and smart. When she left one of my co-workers started to laugh out loud. I apparently was, open mouthed and unapologetic, just sitting there staring at her lips and fingernails! I don’t know if she noticed. But, if she did, she probably thinks I’m a freak. And she’s right!
The thing is I wasn’t judging her. I was actually admiring her adventurous personality. And I was also thinking how nice it is for her that she has the looks and character to back up her provocative lipstick shade.
I wear makeup maybe two to four times per year. And the entire time I’m wearing it I feel like I look better but I also feel uncomfortable like I’m trying to be someone I’m not. Because I am trying to be someone I’m not. So my whole purpose is defeated because I’m trying to build my self confidence by wearing the makeup but I feel self conscious while wearing it. So whenever I see someone wearing bold makeup I start thinking of all these things about myself and them and I end up staring creepily at them. It’s an embarrassing cycle!
It’s time to talk about cake now. I know I said I wasn’t going to use cake mixes anymore. But I saw this, “Are You Kidding Cake” on Pinterest the other day and I had to see if it actually worked. You mix together a box of cake mix, a can of pie filling, and three eggs. Then you spread the mixture in a greased or lined cake pan and bake it. That’s it!
Of course I had to add my own personal touches and flavor preferences. But, it turned out fantastically tasty, stupidly easy, and incredibly beautiful! And its got chocolate and peanut butter!
that looks delicious!
Thank you! I should probably stop baking so much. I think it’s starting to show!
I am not looking forward to coming home in March. But I am looking forward to summer in Idaho Falls. I am looking forward to making heart healthy desserts and enjoying cookouts on Julia’s deck. Your recipes look insanely delicious!
I can’t believe it’s almost March! Don’t worry I’m still keeping the healthy stuff in mind as well!