{Competition Shoes} I got my shoes.  They make things a little more real. And they are motivating to have in the house. You know, I’m not suffering.  I know it will get difficult when I start cutting. But, right now it seems manageable.  I still have days when I want to lock myself in the…

{the last of my chocolate bone broth protein coffee drink:(} I’ve figured out that I need a goal in order to keep myself motivated to stick to a healthy diet. Hence, a Figure Competition. My ultimate goal is to make that healthy diet a unconscious part of my life. I want it to be something…

{tonight’s dinner} Weighed in at 135.6 lbs. (that’s 2.6 lbs. ⬆️ since last Friday). This is a great example of how the scale is not your best “friend” or indicator! Because, my Body Fat came in at at 17.4%! Now, it’s damn near impossible to gain 2.6 lbs. of muscle (or fat) in 1 week!…

Rarely do I feel like a badass. Most of the time I’m awkward and self-conscious. I want to experience what it feels like to have a hard muscular body because I’ve always been enamored with strong muscular bodies.  I’m keeping a journal about it because I want a record of the process in case I…

My workout earlier this evening was so taxing that by the last 10 minutes I started wondering why the hell I was even doing it! The workouts I do with my trainer are always tough. But, there have been a handful (including tonight’s) that were downright brutal!  During these workouts I’m focused. But, over and…

When I was in my teens and early twenties I would get a little excited when I would get sick with flu like symptoms. Symptoms like fever, chills, muscle aches, headaches, and fatigue. I never wanted to have food poisoning type symptoms (because they are gross and super uncomfortable)! I never wanted a head cold…