Lights are going up all around the neighborhood. I got the, full sized, fake tree up. I think that’s as good as it’s going to get this year. Will seems satisfied and that’s what’s important when it comes to the holidays. Apparently, last year, all I did was put a little 4′ fake tree on top of a coffee table. I can barely remember it. I think I was pretty “down” last year.

On Sundays I try to get in a really long weight workout (usually about 2 hours).

I always have these grand, elaborate workouts planned and I never have enough time to finish them. I don’t know if it’s because I take breaks that are too long, or if I just make too many plans.

It seems like I get a lot more done with my trainer. 

When I think about it too much I get really nervous! It makes me wonder “how much” is too much and “how much” is not enough when it comes to working out.

I know I’m not the only person who’s thought about this. If all I was doing was trying to burn calories to lose pounds it would be a little more simple. But, I’m trying to build as much muscle as possible in a relatively short period of time.

When I’m working out I feel like I’m working really hard. But, then afterwards I always question if it was enough. I wonder if I pushed hard enough for long enough to get where I want to be in June. 

It’s hard to trust a process you’ve never been through before. And, it’s hard to imagine my body transforming that dramatically. I still have doubts. But, thankfully I love the way my training and diet make me feel physically and mentally.