My workout earlier this evening was so taxing that by the last 10 minutes I started wondering why the hell I was even doing it!

The workouts I do with my trainer are always tough. But, there have been a handful (including tonight’s) that were downright brutal! 

During these workouts I’m focused. But, over and over again, my muscles will fail. It’s incredibly frustrating.

When I reach a certain level of exhaustion, and my body is ready to be done, my thoughts become a little irrational. 

I start to wonder if my trainer is testing me or even punishing my for something. Maybe I annoy her and she’s trying to get me to quit. 

Sort of like when you’re in Jr. High and you are “going with” a boy or girl that you don’t really “like” but instead of telling them you don’t “like” them you just treat them like garbage until they break up with you so you don’t have to be the “bad guy!”

And then, suddenly, she (my trainer) says, “OK, lady. You’re done. Good job!”

The blood rushes back to my brain. I can feel my face being taken over by a huge grin! The furrow in my brow relaxes. And, all my crazy thoughts become hazy.

I realize, at that moment, Scarlet was testing me. But, only to see how far I’ve come. And, she was pushing (not punishing) me because that’s what we’re there to do. She’s there to teach me these life fitness skills. And she’s incredible at it! I learn something valuable every time I’m with her!